meaning...? a mile wide and an inch deep

i’m in, i’m out
what now, just doubt
it is not right
so what, no fight

can’t elude me
so what, you see
this is the end
but i begin

i write, you read
my thoughts impede
what hope, what smile
can’t walk this mile

you laugh, i cry
you’re what i try
i am not me
who cares, won’t be

no fight, I sit
what’s left to get
step back, silence
mental violence

mind, an ocean
no emotion
am i disturbed
escape deferred

one more, one less
eyes shut no rest
i can’t, i won’t
say please just don’t

evade, go on
i’m just a pawn
trust this, it’s right
my star-crossed light

ha, doublespeak
my truth, so weak
its all i’ve got
for naught i fought